You were honest and open at the start,
Apart from the little things.
But tiny lies grow and take a life of their own,
And yes, it bloody stings.
Like a slap to my face to hear you speak,
And pretend that it’s all okay.
The lies of omission and lack of contrition,
This sickness won’t just go away.
And if you just say it,
What makes me so different?
And if you just say it,
Instead of putting up that front.
And if you just drop it,
The mask you wear for all the others.
And if you just face it,
I know you wish that we’d be lovers.
If you just say it…
Perhaps it’ll make no difference now,
We’re far too gone for love.
Your black eyes hide memories I’m scared to hear,
You’re fragile, acting tough.
I hate it when you fight; I’m scared that you’ll
Shatter at the slightest punch.
But you don’t like the way I love you now,
More motherly then lust.
And if you just say it,
What makes me so different?
And if you just say it,
Instead of putting up that front.
And if you just drop it,
The mask you wear for all the others.
And if you just face it,
I know you wish that we’d be lovers.
If you just say it…
